Hi Wraith,

I don't usually miss much on tzone, but somehow I have missed that you've had a birthday, so belated happy birthday wishes to you .

Sounds like you have a lot of positive things going on in your life at the moment, that's just fantastic . I hope you have a great time at Sparkle too.

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Double post... Whoops.

Hi Wraith,

The way you feel is very similar to the way I feel myself. For whatever reason I feel most strongly about wanting rid of my male genitalia. I hsven't extensively investigated it but a month or 2 ago I did email a couple of SRS surgeons, James Bellringer who said

"Surgery before real life experience is a complete no-no. It would be completely against the standards of care, and I could not be involved.

Sorry. "

I can't find the other email unfortunately, but it was a similar story. So in this country at least, it seems there is little chance of getting a partial reassignment without following the path for a complete transition first.

Hi!
Cool avatar stitchy nice one, thanks for the input, figured that this wasn't going to be an easy process, etc etc. Am expecting to have alot of doors shut in my face I am however a persistant fucker check in from time to time, when i've figured out how to get this done I will let you know. Take it easy Wraith.

Just found out what an Avatar is, Cool! This is Kate Beckinsale looking her most sexy, mysterious underworld best, this is about as close as it gets to the female image I would like to portray. Dark, deep, gothic, sensual, powerful takes no shit and damn good looking, (i'm allowed to dream, reality is hard work) gotta love the fantasy have fun Wraith

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Hi Wraith,

That's a very sexy Avatar!

As far as the difficulties in getting partial reassignment, I hope very much that you'll be able to get what you need. You seem prepared for the difficulties, so I think you'll make it. You just have to be true to yourself. Yes, it's cliche, but it's true.

Joel

This is my second attempt at this post, the internet fairies made the first one disapear as it was far to self indulgent, vain and entirely for my benefit (this one probably will be as well).

I've spent the day chuckling to myself with a huge smile , driving around in a lorry this morning and grinding metal this afternoon being all as manly as one can be whilst wearing nail varnish knowing just how girly I was being yesterday.

I spent the weekend in manchester at sparkle, it was a great weekend, one hell of an eye opener and a desperatly needed education and experience! As a result i've got a much better understanding about what it is to transition and a much better apreciation for what everybody who is transitioning is going through, I know only 48hrs but my level of respect for all of you is tenfold and its been said before a thousand times but just how important this site is especially for the FTM community.

I met Dave, it was all to brief I would of loved to have been able to accept your kind offer and spend more time in your company but I had my own agenda for the weekend that I needed to follow. I've got to say though that in 5mins unwittingly you've given me a good kick up the arse to get back to partying like I once did Cheers!!!

My first time dressed out in public was an amazing experience, I went completely over the top, the first comment I got was "bloody hell you look like you're going to ascot" which is not far from the truth, I didnt feel stupid though, stepping out of the hotel room everything felt normal and as it should, dealing with the stares, comments and drunken banter actually proved to be good fun, I know there's a dark side and I was lucky enough not to encounter it to any serious degree. Half way through the night I dumped the dress in favour of flats, jeans and a tshirt and spent the rest of the night dancing in a club with a goth i'd met. I love dancing and having breasts made it all the better .

The following day proved to be the highlite, I spent the day in hipster jeans, flip flops and a very feminine summery top hanging out with a girl i'd met the night before discussing in depth all the ins and outs of gender issues sexuality etc etc which was very neccesary for both of us. Sat night followed a similiar course to the previous night and was a great end to a cool weekend.

I was amazed at how much pleasure can be sought from such simple things, obviously this dulls as it becomes more an everyday experience but just using the ladies loo, bouncing up and down stairs and to a large extent being accepted, Any way I waffle on as usual, the main point is that I know i'm on the right path and this is the way forward, the first time out in public was one i'll never forget, I do want to retain my male image as a rule however it is going to get alot more feminine and from the waist down a female I do definatly need to become. Wish you all a good week have fun Wraith

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Splendid to hear you had such a positive experience at Sparkle.

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I'm glad you really had a nice time at Sparkle .

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There are times when being alive is truly an amazing thing!

Fri night no work for 2 days, no money to party after last weekend/end of month etc so have spent the last hr dancing round the kitchen to dodgy 80's girlie soft rock roxette. foriegner, alanah miles and one of my all time favourite songs Tine Turner Nutbush City Limits oh suit you sir!

Am I alone and of my head or is it allowed?

Now listening to motorhead Wraith

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Sky high, six thousand miles away...

Bliss.

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Nice one

I've been thinking about this subject all day and as far as choice in music goes nuf said, I could redeem myself, i'm secure enough with it though, T Pau were cool end of Lol (remember the red head?).

Being a kid/teenager in the 80's the music had a huge influence and i've been remembering all the images of the time, I always wanted to be the beautiful women on tv/on the radio wanted to express my emotions and feelings like they did and not be locked in a room with a picture of a lamborghini and my imagination to play with, incredibly developed though it is.

Berlin, China, The Scorpions, T Pau, Shakespears Sister, Tina Turner, Grace Jones, Annie lenox, Maddonna, Warlock (there's a group I bet no one's heard of, the blonde is stunning "please god make me like her or at least let me go to sleep and not have to wake up" that was a long time ago) the list goes on, the films too.

I worked all summer once in a concrete factory, 12/13yrs old so I could buy a tv, no big deal until you find out my parents retired in their early 40's due to being millionares they now live in spain, haven't spoken to them since I left home 13yrs ago). I cried myself to sleep watching tv everynight, some of the characters Julia Roberts wow and all the dodgy formula films of the time I always wanted to be the girl/princess especially the girls in tv shows like Buck Rodgers who got to wear these shiny see through dresses and looked sexy as hell. The powerfull evil women on Flash Gordon etc I cried to all of them.

I'm a proper shit kickin, hard arse biker and I really do mean that, put me infront of the tv with a weepy girlie film on by myself, let me get into it and I get full on proper emotional everytime.

Anyway I drift from the subject, these were the women who influenced me and I aspired to be, as well as the men Adam and the Ants, Aerosmith, Van Halen and of course Axle Rose etc how come they're all allowed to run around in tight lycra being a A sexual and camp and stuff and I've got parents who turned me into an afraid drone!!!

All the characters of the time have played a huge part in my growing up, gave me the education I wanted and told me it was ok to express myself. Thanks!

Wraith

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The stunnig blonde from the band Warlock was called Doro pesch, just googled her. Still stunning and still fronting a heavy metal/rock band, they're giging im Deutschland later in the year, got some friends there so could be a good excuse to go for a long bike ride.

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