True As Steel has been a staple of my music collection since its release.

Doro is gorgeous. I abandoned my maths course to create a pencil sketch of her*:

http://i77.photobucket.com/albums/j64/bujman/share_it/06AUG/doro04.jpg

She deserves an oil, but I'll make sure I'm equal to the task first.

*it had been furled in my wardrobe for fifteen years when I took the photo.

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The Daily Turnout - King of the Throne Room

Very cool Reenie!

For sure you did her justice! Most impressed!
I waterproofed some speakers and put them in the shower, often listen to true as steel at 5am before goin to work!

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WRAITH:
A ghost or hallucination seen in one's own likeness

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The Daily Turnout - King of the Throne Room

Lol
Hell yeah!!!!

Very rock and roll, Dig!

Have done similiar things!

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WRAITH:
A ghost or hallucination seen in one's own likeness

One of my mates had a diploma mounted in a frame in his loo, under which...

In case of emergency, break glass.

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The Daily Turnout - King of the Throne Room

If your reading this I must appologise for the aggressive tone and content. I'm writing it entirely for my own benefit in order to try and get the hateful day that i've had out of my system, all my mates are busy at the moment so the computer screen is gonna have to bear the brunt.

Today at work I was forced, backed into a corner/position where I had to let out the nasty B#####d in me and become very aggressive and vicous, I really do hate having to become like this, thankfully it is rare because most people take one look and leave me well alone.

I hate having to be hard and tough it is not who I want or wish to be and it is gonna take days to calm down and get all the extra testosterone and adreneline out of my system, locking this character up is hard work. Even now hours later my teeth are grinding and the blood is pumping it's like i'm about to come bursting out of a troop carrier on a battlefield ready to take on the world, I hate it I hate it I hate it.

All my life I have never been able to understand why people want to be nasty to each other, why!!!! Life is such a beautiful precious thing and with everyhting that we have in the world and are capable of why can't we do something so simple as be nice to each other and all live happy lives!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH (Can you hear the heavy metal playing in the background lol first time today) god I feel so much better now lmao silly boy who threw his toys out of his pram!!!

I guess I will never understand and whether I do or not is completely irrelevant we live in a world surrounded by people who do not necesesarily want to be cool to one another and I gotta deal with it. I think the problem is I don't like myself when I have to contradict everything I believe in and become somebody I don't want to be.

2 weeks ago I was running around being all girlie having a great time feeling good about myself and today I look in the mirror and see this viscous looking hard biker staring back at me, as good looking as he is lol I't just aint who I want to be.

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WRAITH:
A ghost or hallucination seen in one's own likeness

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Chrissy
Forums Moderator.

Always have faith and believe in yourself.
Never run from the truth.
Have the will to change your fate and your spirit will never die.
Check out the tzone team bios here: http://www.transgenderzone.com/bio.htm

Hi chrissy

Yeah I just looked at my post from a more distant perspective, it does appear to have been completely unecessary to have gotten so worked up. The situation is difficult to decribe without going into huge detail, I needed to put the fear of god into somebody in order to protect myself and two of my work colleagues from somebody hell bent on a wrongen, long and complicated.

After living continually in fear as a child not knowing when the next kicking was coming from a man who was supposed to love and care for you there comes a point when something snaps inside and you refuse to let it ever happen to you again.

No excuse I know

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WRAITH:
A ghost or hallucination seen in one's own likeness

Wraith,

Being agressive and pissed off is pretty much apart of human nature anyway, believe me I have heaps of aggression and anger ect, ect, it's somthing we all have to cope with, heck somtimes I feel like I have an evil twin inside me wanting to be all bitchy and full of hate towards other people, but I've figured how to deal with such occurences and not let it take over me so much.

I find that going for a walk helps to calm me down or listen to music, somthing to take the mind off the anger can help if you let it.

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Misery is my company, why do I stand out from the rest of the people around me.

I just logged on for the first time in a while and re read my own blogg, Ouch, One can get a bit silly at times.

The story concluded in a good way though, matey who caused all the stress got his final written warning and was sacked shortly after, the management all thanked me for dealing with the problem and my work mates got the beers in, so everything ended apropriately.

Talking of apropriate endings this is going to be mine, things have changed in my life, it is looking more and more like i'm going to have to go to Thailand to sort out the SRS which is probably for the best because I do love the country, the people and do trust the doctors there.

I ended up in a Thai hospital after a nasty bike crash, most impressed not so impressed with the taxi driver who decided he needed my part of the road as well as his own but thats another story.

So to conclude i'm going to close this blogg and say goodbye, I need to get my head down and get on with earning the money to pay for everything. It is far too tempting to come home and spend the evening/weekends logging into tzone.

This time next year aside from being half dead with exhaustion I will be waking up a new person with the correct bits between my legs and a dirty great smile.

Thanks to all the cool people and i'm sorry but i'm backing out of the manchester meet on the 16th (that'd be another first) I wish you all well and hope you all find what you're lookng for.

"So long and thanks for all the fishes"

Have fun Wraith

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WRAITH:
A ghost or hallucination seen in one's own likeness

Good luck with everything Wraith, does this have to be goodbye for good? Perhaps you could update us once or twice a year of how things are going.

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Chrissy
Forums Moderator.

Always have faith and believe in yourself.
Never run from the truth.
Have the will to change your fate and your spirit will never die.
Check out the tzone team bios here: http://www.transgenderzone.com/bio.htm

I'm sorry to hear that you're leaving as well - I enjoyed meeting you at Sparkle, and was looking forward to seeing you again on the 16th August. You can still come and meet up, you know, even if you're not posting on here any more - it really would be great to see you again! Why not come and say goodbye in person?

Dave