This thursday I'll be traveling to Melbourne to the Zoo, I haven't been there for along time since I was 10, so I'll be wondering what has changed there but it will be alot of fun and interest

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I got my blood vial today but I figured I would use red food colour which I did and amazingly it looks pretty covincing that it's filled with blood, so I'll leave it at that, and it's too much trouble to get it done with real blood as I had enough trouble making a mess with food colouring so at least I'm happy with it now and how it looks, my mum was worried about it as she's not into gothic things like me so she was abit dissapointed that I had got the vial but it was my decision and I'm happy with what I paid for.

I just hope people don't get too put off from this topic of blood vial and other dark sinister madness that I'm into lol

it can be also a mess with superglue all over my fingers and getting rid of glue is a pain as well so putting together the blood vial was a messy task.

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I'll have to see if I can take a pic of me fully from head to toe, but I have warn people I'm not a skinny super model, I'm pretty solid and big but I figured that if some people see me looking shit it's no big deal, as they say beauty is in the eye of the beholder.......

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hi I'd like to talk to you again you seemed to ignored my pm.I was kind of wondering why though. I don't remember me saying anything to make you mad did I.I'm glad you sorted out what to fill the vial with.

I've joined a gothic forum in Australia so I hope to make some contacts in the local area of Victoria so hopfuly everythig will be cool......

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I figured I might like to let people here know how a Gothic Trans person got shafted (it's all about me) I also must warn some people here that the topic forum is very stressful. so if you are willing to read my intro at Melbourne Gothic Forum in Australia please do not get upset as I've quitted contacting anyone from there.

http://www.gothic.org.au/forum/viewthread.php?tid=18180&page=1

There are 7 pages to read here but I'm sure you can check bits and pices.

I have to admit I was very upset and dissapointed with the goths, as I feel very broken down now so I hope people here could comment on this.

Thanks.

Allison.

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hmm, some people are hostile, but then forums seem to breed that sort of behaviour, where 'long term' posters feel they own the joint and 'newbies' should basically worship them and their views while keeping their own mouths shut.

it's a bit pissy but i wouldn't take it personally, some people just get wound up easily if a new person on a forum joins and starts telling them all about her personal problems, as some [wrongfully] see it as wanting pity from them- whereas in reality you're probably just wanting to tell them about who you are and what makes you tick.

when people do get hostile, my advice would be to simply ignore them. don't quote them, or comment to them, just....ignore them. that's how you'll get them to go away. replying only adds fuel to the fire.

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Yeah your right, that's why I don't bother nowadays with them, but I have seen some people there to be ok and want to be friends with me.

I did realise that I may have been abit too sensetive about my problems but I figured I would let them know about me so they won't be making me look stupid but it did backfire, but then again they were pretty stupid as well so I've pretty much not bothering talking to the ones who are being nasty.

As making friends in the Goth community it has shown me how much these people tend to always have this shitty attitude, only a very small amout of people there treat me as a person.

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To be honest lass I would have introduced your self, just saying hi, then slowly over time let tit bits about your self out.

Yes it is a shame but as you said you have some more friends from there and that was worth it in the long run.

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I found out the ones who do talk to me are Queer goths, lol I have to admit it's funny how I told the goth forum I'm transgended and that the boys just backed right off from me, as most of them were looking for a you know what with me.

The contacts I do have are mostly girls, some guys will chat to me but they do tend to keep nagging me to go to Melbourne to the goth club, as I keep telling them depending on what I'm doing, but really night clubs don't really do anything for me as I would be staring at everything and being bored out of my brain.

I don't mind visiting friends at home or somwere quiet for a coffie and a chat.

I think in some ways I've broken their chain and so I've become the rebel and the goth punks have become the mainstream.

LOL!

oh I must apologise about a part on the post about Hitler that was only a defence tactic I was using to take down Thallium and her anonymus behavour, so I'm sorry if I have offended anyone as I promise it will never happen again.

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LOL! I really hate to say it, but they look all the same with their style and looks pretty repeditive.

Also I think most of them are posers and want everyone to see them in public which is silly, I spend alot of my days as a goth but doing things at home like doing house work and spending time listening to my music and other activites, I mostly get my goth stuff from either a shop in geelong that sells really nice black clothes or I go online and buy stuff there.

I was talking to a lady I know at a salon and told her all about it, she said they were nothing but wannabes, I figured she was trying to cheer me up.

They wear more colour than black which is amazing to me.

Maybe I'm old fashoned with the way I dress lol, anyway I try to branch off them and be a real individual goth.

Sorry I keep repeating myself, time for me to shut my brain down for now.

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Oh I forgot I'm also now a part of another Goth forum but it's a global network so I'm able to communicate with others in different parts of Australia.

It's a much better setup, and the attitude there is much more stable, so I'm getting people talking to me in a much better conversation than the Melbourne one which I think is a shame to how it became stuckup nowadays.

I'm feeling tired now so I'll be sleeping abit during the day.

I'll be back next time to keep everyone updated.

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Ah.

I'm back again, been along time since I've said anything.

I've been doing ok, just had abit of a wee problem with some people, as I've tried to make a request to have my membership cancel in the Melbourne gothic forum, if the administator refuses to remove my topics and all that I may end up being the most embaressed person on the planet.

I wish there was a law on how administrators must be responsible with the member's requests on removing things.

I also got this game for me PC called BioShock which was alot of fun to play.

Ugh I even try to learn the Java, Perl and PHP programming language to find a way to remove my topic crap but I guess it didn't work.

*Sigh* I'm not sure what to do now.

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