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**PurplePrincess** · Advisor Joined: 08 Feb 2007 Posts: 2678 Location: Bristol

I bought a handbag today, not a huge one but not small by any means, you may be surprised but it's the first one I've bought, I've been meaning to buy one for so so long but not getting around to it. Finally I have got sick of carrying my purse in a coat pocket or if I don't have a coat with me then not even taking my purse with me either, lol. I've managed to fill my handbag full of useful things already, I know that pretty soon I will wonder how I managed without one.

I went to see the new Indy film today, I went by myself and really wished Skyler could have been with me but I still had a great time. I decided to wear a pair of ankle boots that have a 3" heel. I don't often wear them because I am 5'11" as it is and I guess I have felt a little paranoid of attracting attention for being even taller with them on. I worry that if I attract too much attention then people will notice that I am trans, I know I am silly, lol. Anyway I didn't attract any more attention, so I'll probably wear them out a bit more. I do really like them because having a bit of a heel they make you feet look smaller and anything that makes my feet look smaller is definitely a good thing.

I really loved the film, it was non-stop action. I had to go to the loo halfway through, I can never get through a whole film without going and I didn't want to leave the movie to go, I hung on waiting for a break in the action but there was none so I had to go, I missed about 5 minutes, I'm sure nothing drastic happened in that time though, lol. Some people have said there was a twist at the end, I don't know what the twist is, is it that Indy gets married? It was certainly a nice ending. I am wondering now whether I should have stayed until the credits finished.

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**Flameboy** · Posted: Sat Jun 21, 2008 8:51 pm Post subject:

I'm glad you enjoyed the film, especially after my recommendation! Very Happy

PurplePrincess wrote:

I am wondering now whether I should have stayed until the credits finished.

Nah, don't worry, there was nothing after the credits. I pretty much always stay til they've finished, just in case there's something else at the end!

Dave

**Reenie** · Reporter Joined: 08 Feb 2007 Posts: 3577 Location: Glasgow

PurplePrincess wrote:

I know that pretty soon I will wonder how I managed without one.

And not long after, when you tip it out to find something, you will wonder how your entire worldly possessions manage to fit, tardis-like, into such a small space. Very Happy

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Wraith · Joined: 25 Apr 2008 Posts: 47

Hi!
I'm really glad you enjoyed the film, nice one!!! Promise not to write an essay this time, I had a realy cool day out in Bristol as well, when did it get so cosmopolitan? really clean and chic, the city centre and clifton is beyond recognition, very cool!! Love st nicholas market and the area around the council office. Checked out all the unique one of shops and bought a dress from a very nice lady with a sewing machine on the third floor of a shop bs8? i'm quite jealous Bristol has got Exeter beat on alot of fronts when all the building work is finished it will be something else. Promised not to write an essay so am stoppin now, have fun Wraith

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**PurplePrincess** · Advisor Joined: 08 Feb 2007 Posts: 2678 Location: Bristol

I'm glad you liked Bristol Wraith Smile

, I love living here. Actually I was reading the local newspaper the other day and there was an article inside which said that Bristol had the highest percentage of content and happy citizens out of all the cities in England in a recent survey. Of course I take these kind of surveys with a good portion of salt, the amount of people they ask surely can't be very representative of the whole city, but it still makes nice reading.

A few months ago a girl I used to know quite a few years ago but lost touch with, found me on facebook. We did arrange to meet up but at the time she had to cancel because her mother was ill. Finally we've arranged to meet up again this Sunday in a quiet pub. I am really looking forward to it but I am a little apprehensive too, I've no idea what she will expect, lol, or how she will find me. I'm sure it's going to be interesting at least.

Also it's scarf-wearing week for me this week, which means I feel quite depressed Sad

, I feel like I am hiding away and I don't like it, oh well, it is necessary.

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**PurplePrincess** · Advisor Joined: 08 Feb 2007 Posts: 2678 Location: Bristol

I met up with a friend I've not seen for years today. We had planned to meet up in a quiet pub but when I rang an hour before she had forgotten and was at a local American car show. She suggested that I could meet her at the car show, it was being held at a local football club and not far away so I thought why not.

We went into the bar at the football club for a chat, she had her new husband to be and her 3 young kids with her and we had a nice chat. It was like the years had never passed and we got on well. Next time we meet up she said she'll bring some of the guys I used to know with her, it will interesting that's for sure. She said that she has talked about me with them and even correcting them when they get my pronouns wrong, it's nice to know she is sticking up for me even when I'm not there, lol. So I asked her about what the guys thought about meeting me and she said that they are not afraid but a bit apprehensive about it.

My friend also said she had a picture of me from about 8 years ago, old piccys of me are very rare and so I'm going to try and get a copy of it. I was very skinny back then and about 4 stone lighter, so it will be interesting to see it. I hated having my picture taken back then as I hated how I looked, I never imagined back then that in the future I'd be so interested in seeing how I used to look.

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Mike · Posted: Mon Jun 30, 2008 10:05 am Post subject:

Hey Chrissy,

I cant believe you've only just bought a handbag lol Im always having a go at my gf cus her handbag is absolutely full to the rafters in rubbish. I dont know what it is with women and carryin so much crap around with them lol Even her purse is full of rubbish.

Im glad you had a good chat with your old friend. Its always nice to catch up with people from the past. Especially if they're so easy going and take you as you are instead of bein freaked out. Im sure when you meet the other friends they will be fine, its only natural that they be a bit aprehensive. They havent seen you for a while etc.

**PurplePrincess** · Advisor Joined: 08 Feb 2007 Posts: 2678 Location: Bristol

I have felt like it's been a bad day today and one I'd like to forget, I am so glad I am home. Firstly, what a tiring day it has been, I do feel worn out today. Secondly I am pissed off today that a new lady in the canteen called me sir. Recently I've noticed that the canteen staff have started calling all the guys sir all the time. When I come along they don't call me sir thankfully but they don't call me madam either. But this one woman today said "Here is your change sir" to me. I know the work uniform is not very feminine looking but I wear my own jeans and most people I know think my voice is pretty good and feminine sounding, perhaps it was just a slip as the queue was all guys apart from me. It did upset me though, I didn't mention it but just gave her a strange look. If she says it again I will definitely tell her that I am not a sir. I also got called mate by a driver too, and I was thinking that I have been passing well recently too.

Also I am really unlucky with watches Sad

. My watch stopped today and I have felt lost without it. Hopefully it might be a battery or something but I thought it was one of those that winds itself up from movement but I think I could be wrong. My watch was a present from my boyfriend and the first ladies watch I've had, so as well as the fact I really love it, it does have sentimental value. If I can't get it fixed I will be so so upset. I think I need to get another watch anyway, I should have more than one watch, lol.

I have been thinking of my mum a lot recently, she has recently had another hip replacement operation and her recovery hasn't been as straight forward this time, she had an infection and then had to go back to hospital for something else the other day. She is really having a rough time at the moment, even when I've had a bad day I think to myself that it's not that bad really in comparison.

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**Reenie** · Reporter Joined: 08 Feb 2007 Posts: 3577 Location: Glasgow

PurplePrincess wrote:

But this one woman today said "Here is your change sir" to me.

I'd roast her on the spot, but I know that's not your style, Chrissy.

I'd mention it to your line manager at the earliest opportunity; calling a woman "sir" is out of line. It's not so easy with guys that call you mate. I have a friend Nina who calls everyone mate...

On the subject of watches, I generally wear one when I'm out and about because I need to know the time in order to catch buses and such. I don't wear one otherwise. When I was a kid working on Dad's building sites, he wouldn't let us wear watches. The theory behind this is that not having a watch meant that not-a-watch wouldn't be broken in the harsh environment and so there would be one less overhead on the balance sheet.

We kept a clock in the works van so we knew when it was time for tea-break/lunch/knock-off-home.

It doesn't take long under such circumstances to rely on the body-clock to know what time it is, and to this day, I know within five minutes the hour of the day, even if I wake up in the dark of the middle of the night.

This used to boggle my missus' mind. Eighteen minutes past four in the morning...

"What time is it luv?"

"Twenty past four".

Light goes on and sure enough...

Sorry to hear about your mum's trouble; I hope she makes a swift recovery.

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Wraith · Joined: 25 Apr 2008 Posts: 47

Everyone has bad days but if anybody deserves not have one it has to be you. Hope you had a better day today Very Happy

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**PurplePrincess** · Advisor Joined: 08 Feb 2007 Posts: 2678 Location: Bristol

Reenie wrote:

Sorry to hear about your mum's trouble; I hope she makes a swift recovery.

Thanks Reenie, I hope so too.

Wraith wrote:

Everyone has bad days but if anybody deserves not have one it has to be you. Hope you had a better day today Very Happy

Wraith

Awwww thanks Very Happy

. Sometimes people say to me that I don't deserve the bad things that happen sometimes in life. But bad things happen to everyone, deserving or not and of course often it is not because of any direct consequence from our actions. I have learned that the most important thing is how you deal with unfortunate events. To be honest a couple of things upset me the other day but really in hindsight I think I brooded over how I felt hurt a little too much and really shouldn't have let it get to me.

I do think I can be a strong person sometimes, sometimes I have an inner strength which surprises people, a lot of the time I do feel vulnerable though and alone in the world. I am probably way too sensitive and sometimes it seems like a gift and at other times it's like a curse. I do get a lot of enjoyment from helping people when I can but also I sometimes feel a terrible guilt that I don't help people as much as I could. Worse is that I don't do enough to help myself, I'm terribly disorganised and I think I spend too much of my time dreaming. I guess I am in a quite philosophical mood right now but I just want to just be able to push on and achieve something, I feel I am wallowing in self pity too much and allowing myself to feel like a victim. I feel like some part of my character has been eroded over the years. For a long time I felt so miserable and empty and devoid of all spirit. I do feel now like things are improving slowly and my spirit and sense of life hasn't been wholly purged. I'm getting better but it still seems a mammoth task to build a life for myself. One thing I do know is that I'll never give in.

I don't often post YouTube links as I don't often use it because I only have dial-up and it can take 20 mins for me to load a music video, but this is my favourite song at the moment, they played it a few times at work on the radio and I just love it and want to share it with you all.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qdCUNyjSOd0

Today I have had such a lazy day, I have been unwinding and enjoying not doing a lot at all. I have been playing Final Fantasy XII for ages now on the Playstation 2. I have been playing for nearly 400 hours Surprised

, mainly because I have been doing all the side quests and optional things and I have got my party incredibly stong. After getting the legendary Wyrmhero blade, Excalibur and the Tournesol I finally decided to finish the game today and what an ending it was, I just love the Final Fantasy games and I was so emotional at the end I almost cried, lol. I feel a little disappointed now it's over and Final Fantasy XIII is on the Playstation 3 and I'm not going to buy one until they get a lot cheaper. I'll probably play one of the older ones again, I can play them over and over, lol.

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**Reenie** · Reporter Joined: 08 Feb 2007 Posts: 3577 Location: Glasgow

PurplePrincess wrote:

I'm getting better but it still seems a mammoth task to build a life for myself. One thing I do know is that I'll never give in.

There's dogged determination behind this and it sits well with me. Very well expressed and I'll see you at the top of Everest. Smile

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Wraith · Joined: 25 Apr 2008 Posts: 47

Hi!
Like the song, cheers hadn't heard that.

Don't think you should ever feel bad about not being able to help everyone, now got images of superwoman in my head aaah!!

Everytime I get a post from you it makes me feel special i'm sure the same applies for everyone else, I read something at the botttom of one your posts "Chrissy's words are better than chocolate"
For sure!!

Have fun Wraith

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**PurplePrincess** · Advisor Joined: 08 Feb 2007 Posts: 2678 Location: Bristol

Wraith wrote:

Everytime I get a post from you it makes me feel special i'm sure the same applies for everyone else, I read something at the botttom of one your posts "Chrissy's words are better than chocolate"

Hehe, the sloganizer thingy on my signature does come up with some interesting things sometimes.

I think any kind of friendship is special even if it is limited to being online and whether I know many of you on tzone that well or not, I consider you all my friends.

I am a big sport lover although I'm not much of a tennis fan at all, I do prefer watching team sports. However I was changing channels on the TV earlier and the Wimbledon Mens Singles Final was about to start. Normally I wouldn't have watched it unless someone from Britain was playing but I sat down and watched a bit and I just couldn't stop. I've never seen such an exciting tennis match, it was wonderful to watch and both competitors were showing some astounding skills.

It was obvious that the favourite and champion for the last 5 years ~ Roger Federer was the crowd's favourite and so I found myself supporting the underdog Rafael Nadal and really hoping so much that he'd win. The match lasted for over 4 hours and it just seemed that they couldn't be split apart, I started to wonder if they'd just go forever and not find a clear winner, lol. Eventually in what must have been a terribly gruelling match Rafael Nadal did win his first Wimbledon title. I was pleased to see that Roger Federer was very gracious in defeat, he did give the match everything. The win meant so much to Rafael that I think he was crying, I do like it when the winners in sport show some emotion.

I think I might watch the tennis a little more next year.

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**thefishkeeper** · Advisor Joined: 09 Feb 2007 Posts: 1487 Location: Reading

You know that match is a little like our lives, with each play we make there is some one on theother side trying to take it away, but if we keep playing and beating the other people/person. we too will come out on top and the others will leave us to our lives.

And yes it was a good match.

Cool

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