So... things have finally settled down to a point where I'm no longer having to be dragged out from under the bed by dear old C. in order to face the world.

Shocking, I know.

So, what's happened in the last... erk, 6 months, 7 months since I was here? Way too much. Way, way, way WAY too much to completely write down without boring you all silly, so here's the cliffnotes version.

Shortly after Christmas, I crashed into a full blown depressive episode. Coping with the universe was not high on the cards, and I'm afraid I just completely lost touch with everything. I wasn't attending lectures, I wasn't... doing anything at all except staring at the TV and hoping I wouldn't have to think about anything any time soon.

C. got a job with Scottish Gas. We saved up some money and moved out of the Uni flat- we're now living in a place we're renting privately. It's got an ocean view, and is absolutely stunning, if on the third floor with an ungodly number of steps.

I, currently, am jobless and have left university. I couldn't cope with the pressures of real life plus the amount of work I had to put in to get the Chemistry degree- and in all honesty, I'm not even sure that's where I want to be right now. Suddenly, I'm in a position where I have no idea what I want to do with my life.

So, upon moving out, I seem to have regained at least most of my sanity- certainly, I'm no longer hiding under heavy objects. I've gone back on a diet and am cycling as frequently as I can, although I seem to have injured my knees- very hard to move them without pain.

We have two older, and slightly mad rescue cats, who live quite happily indoors with us.

I'm turning 20 in a month, and I have no idea where my life is going, but I'm a lot happier now than I was when I was at university. For whatever reason, it just wasn't the right time.

That said... hi guys, how're you? I might even be back for a little while now.

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Good to see you back amonst the living son.

There is nothing like the love of a good woman, and it seems that C is your good woman, so glad to hear that your still together and happyer in your new home.

A job will come your way and your'll know when the time is right.

Good to have you back.

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Nice to see you back Rob .

A flat with an ocean view, mmmm, I am so jealous. I'm glad to hear that you're feeling a lot happier now after going through a bad time after Christmas. At nearly 20 you still have so much time ahead of you, I am 33 and still unsure what I am going do work wise for the rest of my life, I certainly don't want to work in a warehouse forever. I hope though that you do find your calling in life, sometimes things can happen when we least expect them to.

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Hey Rob, good to see you back mate - I was just wondering how you were the other day!

Don't worry about leaving university and not knowing what you want to do - I started and left various courses before finally getting a degree - and what I do now is completely different from what I studied anyway! I'm pleased to hear you're much happier now - after all, that's what really counts in life.

Look forward to hearing more from you again soon mate!

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Hi Rob, nice to see you back.

Don't worry about the degree stuff. I dropped out at the same age as you, never got the degree and twenty years later it hasn't killed me...

...there's more to life than a piece of paper to be framed and hung in the lavatory (in case of emergency - break glass.)

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Hey guys, thanks for the well-wishes.

As for uni, I'm not really too worried about it. What will be, will be and all that. I applied for an apprenticeship working on trains at Scotrail, and am keeping an eye out for any other jobs- even if it's just working at pizza hut or whatever.

Got some bad news yesterday. C's boss decided to terminate her contract- apparently, C builds up too much of a rapport with the customers (What the hell?). Turns out being too helpful can get you fired. Who knew?

I personally think that her team didn't have enough drop-outs, and they're getting rid of about half of them to make up for it.

Seriously, too much of a rapport.

What the hell.

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She was, alas, on a temporary contract- which can be terminated for any reason. C'est la vie.

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Nice to see you, Rob
Pity about C losing her job. But temporary contract... c'est la vie, indeed...

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Registered with the Job Centre today. Bleh.

I hate going through their umpteen million questions about whether we happen to have £16000 in the bank or not.

Evidently we don't.

It would be awfully nice if we did. Anyone going to donate to my 'Starving Rob' fund?

Kidding, kidding.

C's being remarkably upbeat about the whole thing, so that's good. I'm glad she's not feeling too down about it.

Eh, nothing new to report other than that. How're you guys?

...Anyone need a pair of hands for a job?

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Guh. Stupid Jobcentre. Still haven't called me back to do the phone interview.

It's not like I need the money or anything, guys. I'm only hovering on the breadline here. That's the only damned reason I would ever call you for goddamn help.

Well, this sucks.

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So, finally went to the Jobcentre interview, which was as annoying as ever. They didn't ask for my University certificate that said I'd quit, so I of course, did not provide it.

Apparently they wanted it. Apparently, Rob is supposed to telepathically know what to bring after they never sent him the damned letter.

Well, that sucks.

On the bright side though, I have a phone interview for Halifax Bank of Scotland on the 22nd.

Also, C. is taking me to the London Film and Comic Con for my birthday. ^^; She's had the tickets for ages. Oh God, it's going to be awesome.

Turning 20 on the 23rd of July. Yay?

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Good luck for the phone interview Rob.

Rob wrote:

Also, C. is taking me to the London Film and Comic Con

Sounds great Rob but what is it? Is it a convention? That's what I guessed. Anyway I hope you have a really great time in London.

Wow, nearly 20 years old, now I am feeling old, lol.

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