Yay feeling much better this week. Taken amore laid back approach to work. I'll work as hard as the rest of my Deptment does lol.

Saw my GP about my cholestral Blood test results, It's not as high as before but still got a 6 something ideally it should be 5 something. So im going to see a nurse about my diet. Nothing to worry about but im just on the boarder of healthy.

Finally got our contracts through and signed so we are just waiting on a moving Date now can't wait to move. Going to miss all my friends but its going to be a nicer house, area and i finally get my own bedroom again the last 2 years sharing with my Brother hasn't been fun, He's noisy and messy >.<

Lifes looking positive again

Jess

Diets suck big time, I can't believe everything that i want to eat is on the bad side of the chart i was given. 2 days ive been on it, and already today i was naughty and slipped, had myself sweet and sour pork for lunch >.<

I applied for a job a few weeks back got a message to call back so i did that today. turns out they DONT read application forms i told them interviews would need to be arranged around my current job so what do they do book me in for an interview tomorrow or friday. not really much help when she said they are there till 5 when i finish work at 5 then would have to travel 2-3 hours to get there lol. She said they would try to arrange another day but i doubt they'll bother tbh.

I've been thinking about brushing up on my web developing skills and applying for a web designer job or something similar. Ive got some HTML, CSS, php and Java most of its basics or forgotton but I think if i have the time and inclination to study up a bit then i think ill be happy in the job. Looked at a few jobs already and most want to see a portfollio so i guess ill have to do something there aswell. Im ok if i have a Theme or something to work to but designing a website with out any content is really hard.
It's either that or try and find someone in the maintence or networking side of computing that'll hire me with no experience. Have to get out of Retail it's driving me up the wall.

Jess

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Hmm thats a good idea, never thought about doing it that way to make up a portfollio.

What i ment by a theme and designing with no contentwas, When i was learning Web Design before. you'd get a fictional company or group and make a website thats suited for them and there target audience, with content that they want displayed company history etc. when i tried to brush up on my skills before i just got mental block and couldn't think of anything to design my sites on or for to practice. The idea of volunteering to make one for people with out one would solve that problem.

Turns out i was wrong they did get back to me. I now have an interview on monday for a job at a new store closer to where we are moving to. This is great if i get it as its early mornings, so i get all afternoon off from 1pm onwards . It'll be classed as a transfer so ill have a bit more job security for when i do go full time. Plus the extra premium tops my money up to what im earning now so i wont loose any money

Jess

Have a bit on my mind lately so im having trouble sleeping. no matter how late im up till i always seem to wake up about 3.30am and cant sleep for a fair few hours. so instead of laying there though id post some stuff.

Well was a good drive up there and i thought the interview went really well, But i didnt get the job. The messaged that i got was that because i have asthma and i'd be working with flour it might be a problem. Was a bit dissapointed with that. Im going to speak with them and mention ive never had a problem with dust or flour setting it off and if it helps ill see if my doctor will write a letter or something.
Oh and my current store has now found out im moving lol atm personal know im sure by the time i go back in on tuesday my manager will know. just wonder how long it will be before they sit me down to have a nice little chat about me leaving and such.

It's not that im desperate for this particular job but the hours suit me really well and i just dont like the idea that the first time in about 8 years ill be unemployed. Plus i was really hoping i would be able to visit my friend out in the states. Nevermind

Had my 2nd session of IPL week last went well still hurt but it wasnt red like it was after the first one, I've already noticed it thinning out which is pretty good news. I've booked my next appointment but i imagine drive 140miles for ipl is going to be to cost effictive so after this appointment ill look for a new place thats closer to home.

Me and mum2 took a trip to staffordshire to view the house again mum1 wanted window measurements for nets lol. WoW the house is really nice the guy has done an amazing job with it and the views are pretty nice to to. there are house backing on to us and a row on the oppsite side to them and the after that its just countryside. our house is higher that the others so those house dont really block the view which is nice. The area seems really nice and pretty quiet for midday saturday. I love the accent they have up there as well lol
Now we just need the solictors to stop messing about and set the date to move.

Nice CTRL+ALT+DEL avatar there...Player 4 I believe?

Yep my fav web comic the guys a genius

The Most under estimated out of them all and my fav one lol

Well nothing could be done about the job and asthma its company policy because im on inhalers i can't do the job. The person i spoke to was really nice about it though, She said my interview went great and they were impressed. She did look into a way around it but there isnt anything they or i can do. I'm thinking of just picking up the part time job they have going, At least its some money.

I'm in a really good mood this week Since the will most proberly be my last week at my current store. Ive got 2 weeks hoilday starting next week and after thats ended we should have moved. If not i would have handed my notice in. The only problem is i really cant be bothered to work as hard as i could do lol.

Decided i need a change so i dye'd my hair its a darkish brown, Mocha brown i think it was called. looks pretty nice i wanted something that was reddish but mum persuaded me not to. She says it'll make me look pale and ill, made me laugh since i was getting told i was looking pale and ill anyway lol. Looks much better anyways made a bit of a mess last time i got my hair dyed i tried to go for a light brown colour but i only got 1 packet so my hair was really light at the top then it got darker till it was brown at the ends. We went over the top with another colour but it the top was still much lighter. Teach me not to buy enough hair dye lol.
The only person to notice i did it was my 1 of my best friends was a little dissapointed with that lol Although the fact he noticed suprised me he's not normal that observant lol.

Missing my Friend in the states its really wierd with out her about, she has a pretty loud personality. We've been hanging out for about 3 years now in and out of work. Shes a really nice person a little misunderstood but will do anything for her friends. She told me she might be staying another month. She was ment to come back in Oct sometime so it looks like i proberly wont end up seeing her till Nov/Dec. I still talk to her at least once a week by Email but its not the same :S

Jess

Yay looks like we Finally have a moving date 8th August. was hopeing for next friday but we'll incur a charge for moving withing 10days of the contract being signed thats even if our buyers can sign it this week. does mean i wasted 2 weeks of my hols for no reason. Am thinking about trying to cancel next week and move it back 2 weeks but thats not likey to happen. So my other alternatives are move some other hols from else where take it as unpaid or see if they let me have it as paid authrised (not likely with my managers lol).

Also should hear back about a store transfer tomorrow thats if they are doing there job righ >.<

Brought some new games to keep me occupied, I was playing WoW for a while but it got repetative, so i cancelled my Subs. anyways i have Metal Gear solid 4 now i've only played the one on the PSX i never completed but loved it. The new one is Amazing. Also playing through Superman on the 360 it looks really dodgey but its fun and easy something to pick up and play and not to serious like MGS4.

Jess

Good luck on the store transfer.

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Thanks im hoping i can get something dont care what it is lol

Typically of the personal dept at my work they havent done anything. So i told them our move date and also mention that if my the 8th August i dont have a transfer then i shall be leaving with out working a notice. There is no way im driving for 3 hours to get to work to drive 3 hours home the days wages wouldn't cover the petrol. She seemed alot shocked about that but its tuff...

The problem is our personal manager is off on holiday for a few weeks and the person she left in charge doesnt want to screw anything up so she's not really doing anything >.<

Anyways i rang the stoke up there personal manager is out for the day but the person i spoke to took a message and my details and promised to pass them on today for me. Guess ill see what happens :S

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Well our move date got changed we are now moving friday next week. Really short notice lol. We have a week and half inorder to pack the rest of the house and arrange a removal company. I can see it get really stressfull in our house the next week or so. It already started last night as we started to pack some more stuff.

Went in and told my manager i need to move the holiday back that i moved the day before, I told her i would still work monday and tueday night but after that i wouldnt be coming back. She took it well i guess but there is a great deal she could do.

Our personal manager had also come back so i spoke to her aswell, she knew nothing about what was going on so i explained everything and she promised to look into what was happening. I went back to see her a few hours later the other person that was dealing witih it hadn't left any info what so every. So she rang stoke and left a messge with them to call her back.
Anyways stoke rang me and left a message saying there PTM is in the office for another hour give him a call. Typical phone company i didnt get the message till exactly an hour after he left it so it was to late by then.
Anyway i spoke to him the next morning and i now have a meeting the week after we have moved to disscus what they have available so thats great news. He also said my PTM gave me a glowing report lol.

Also had to get my previous manager to complete a Colleague Performace Review on me. when our PTM checked my file it turns out i havent had one in over a year, Pretty certain they are a 6 monthly thing lol. So that had to be back dated and is all bull crap. All the points she wrote down for things i need training on i already know how to do but she couldnt think of anything else.

In a way i'm glad we're moving earlier than expected gives us a chance to get settled and for my parents to both calm down a bit. I've already told them what im intending to do about transitioning. But we haven't talked about any of the details which once we've moved and settled im going to do. I want to start soon. In all fairness it something i've been wanted to do for along time but i couldnt admit it to my self back then and its only in the last 2 years or so i've been able to.


Jess

Finally moved and got the internet back. its been horrible not having it, dont know how i coped when we didnt have the net lol.

we'll we're in out new house It's really nice but the move didnt work out as ideal as we thought it might have been. Both my mums have had to go back to london to work in the week, so i havent seen much of them at all.

Got a very very last minute transfer sorted, not the greatest of depts or hours. Working on the deli counter 18hours a week. sliceing meat n cheese. people are nice but i really dont like being so up close to customers i feel trapped behind there. So will be actively looking for something else or maybe another dept if possible.

I hadn't been taking any meds for about 2-3 weeks Silly me had packed all my new bits, inhalers and stuff in a box i just kept out what i thought would be enough but run out. I thought id be ok lol. found them at the begining of the week and to be honest its been horrible not taking anything the first couple of days were ok but after wards wasn't good.

Got to regester at a new GP im worried about this a bit. its not as straight forward as before in london. I have to write to a board and they then decided which practise i have to attend. I've then got a new patient appointment to attend. My last GP was really nice and very helpfull specially when i came to him with my trans stuff.

Now we're moved and im in a more ideal situtation to start doing things im starting to worry if this is whats right for me. I think its like butterflies or something. I just need to make that first step and it'll be fine and right. Maybe now there are no reasons not to do it im trying to find some excuse. Deep down i know its what i want and have wanted for a long time and that when ive been out as my self before its be great and ive felt 100 times better.
I think my problem is im a go with the flow person, and i keep thinking my life isnt so bad, there are people worse of than me, Yeah i have issues with my gender but why go rock the boat and prolly upset some people in the process.
I guess i need to think sod the others i gotta do what i need to do.

Have another 2 days till the parents come back home, so ill have to do some thinking about this and have a chat with them on sat

Jess