Well, I know I was a pain in the bum for asking so many questions and telling everyone just how scared I was about telling my parents. I've finally let them know via a letter.

Just want to say a huge thank you to FlameBoy for his letter and thank you to everyone for your brilliant support.

I have yet to find out what my parents think as they are coming over next week to talk about it.

Will let you all know soon.

SCARED!!!! Lol! xx

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Evan X

If you truly love something or someone, then you shouldn't be afraid to love it, because if you are, that's not love.

If it feels like everyone's always pulling your trousers down....start wearing a belt.

good luck

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Good luck, Evan!

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I have to EDIT because I can't SPELL!!

Congratulations, Evan! Best wishes. I hope everything turns out well for you.

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Ich bin wer ich bin. Ich kann mich nicht verändern, nur wie andere mich wahrnehmen.
I am who I am. I can't change myself, only how others see me.

Well, still don't know what my parents think as it's not 'next week' yet. But when my Mum dropped my son off after babysitting him, my mum suprised me by giving me a hug and a kiss and said they'd be round to talk about it.

The father of my son was giving me hell so I just gave him nuts (not literally!!) and said that I was going to go through with it. I've got to be more scared of HIS mum rather than my parents put together! Going to talk to them next week on Sunday. This oughta be a laugh!!! Lol! But it's what I want and no-one is ever going to be able to talk me out of it!

I just can't wait til it's all sorted out and I start getting the treatment. I have to make a call to the clinic to sort out when I can make an appointment etc.

I can't believe that I was so scared to begin with because even though I don't know what people think of it, a huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders and I don't have to pretend anymore. I've never been happier!!...Ok, other than when my son was born!

I'm hoping to get some pics of me up on my myspace page and on my profile at some point. Am looking pretty photogenic at the moment, but have no camera or device to hook up to the computer to do it! Sods Law!

Anyway, catcha y'all later.

Evan x

P.S. If anyone can come up with some really masculine but simple names for when I change it, it would be much appreciated. I like Sean at the moment. For some reason, I don't think I will like 'Evan' in years to come. Thanks! Stay Happy!

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Evan X

If you truly love something or someone, then you shouldn't be afraid to love it, because if you are, that's not love.

If it feels like everyone's always pulling your trousers down....start wearing a belt.

Heh. I legally changed my name to Alex, and now I'm wishing I'd gone with Evan (I don't dislike Alex, but Evan has kind of gotten stuck deep down somewhere), and you are there feeling that for you it won't stick. Funny old world.

I'm glad you feel a weight off your shoulders. Hopefully the feeling stays throughout the long hard journey ahead.

I personally think Sean is a great choice

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"We burn the fat off our souls... Hemingway said that..."

Hey, Evan, well done mate!

And sounds like initial reactions from your folks are pretty good too...

I think Evan and Sean are both cool names; but it's gotta be a name you'll be happy with. You could always try asking your folks what they'd have called you if you'd been born a boy - that's what I did and why I'm currently trying to decide if I really am a Dave or not!

Looking forward to seeing your pics by the way

Dave

Well done!!! Best of luck!!

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It has come to that day of finding out exactly what my parents think, and boy, DID I! I wish I'd never have told them. They called me a freak and that they would never be comfortable around me anymore. In fact it was all of the worst things you could expect them to think...only worse. They then said that they wanted to take my son away from me and hand him to his father. And I thought they would be understanding!

They're my adoptive parents too so I don't understand. If they went out knowing they wouldn't get exactly what they wanted then why are they so fussed now??

If you have a child, you don't care what sex they are as long as they are happy and healthy. Surely it wouldn't change when you're older.

Either way, I'm doing it. And if someone wants to fight me for my son then they can bring it on. Just try separating a parent from their child. See what happens.

At least I can thank them in the way that they have pushed me into knowing just how much I want this and what I need to do. Fair enough it wasn't the reaction that I was hoping for, but still I don't have to pretend anymore and I told them that I was going to do this with or without their support.

Sounds wierd, but after the initial crying session I had earlier, I feel a lot better and have the strength to do this. And am extremely happy that I'm not hiding in the dark anymore.

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Evan X

If you truly love something or someone, then you shouldn't be afraid to love it, because if you are, that's not love.

If it feels like everyone's always pulling your trousers down....start wearing a belt.

Hey dude,
you're so admirable for being so strong. It was probably just their initial sorta... shock still but they'll realise that you always have been a guy.
I'm bloody impressed though. Well done for not hiding anymore. If I decide I want to transition, I hope I have your strength. Sean.

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Thanks for that guys. I don't know what it is but I'm so certain that I want this now and it's one thing that no-one is going to dictate to me because it's my life. I'm running out of time before my son recognises and understands that I'm going to be changing. Fair enough, he's six months old, but I have a vague memory from when I was a little bit older! Lol.

Can anyone tell me how I get funding, who I ask and how I apply for it? I'm on the verge on sorting out my appointments but there is no way that I can afford it.

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Evan X

If you truly love something or someone, then you shouldn't be afraid to love it, because if you are, that's not love.

If it feels like everyone's always pulling your trousers down....start wearing a belt.

I don't know if you have to apply for it personally. Every time I go to the doctor and I get referred to see someone else, the doctor applies for funding from the PCT. I don't deal with any of that. I assume it's the same for everybody.

hey there Evan

I read your post and felt like writing to you. I have two sons myself, aged 5 and 9. I know it sounds better to transition while your son is very young but don't worry too much if it takes longer than you want. I'm beginning my transition and i'm 6 weeks on T. My sons take it well. I think young kids adapt well to situations like that as long as you bring it gradualy into their life.

I dont know about your laws there, but here in Canada there are laws protecting people against discrimination based on orientation, religion, etc etc. In court the judge told me that they can NOT take my child just coz i am a transgendered person, and that it would be against my human rights.

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Girl/ boy/ butch/ femme.. I'm just ME!