Hi guys,

Well I don't think most of you know me cuz I am new to this forum. I am another FTM and found this forum just last night. And I gotta say, I think this is really gonna help me during my transitioning.
I've just started my whole process with the pysch, it's so awesome to finally have the ball rolling but on the other side I am soooo impatient.
Recently I have really accepted who I am after a long period of struggling of who I should be.
Like most of you it started when I was little, the earliest on I can remember is when I was around 5 or 6. But the realization must've come around the age of 12, going into puberty. It was like a damn horror-movie to me. Boobs growing, and all that.. I've always been a real loner, and still don't really have any friends. Just my GF who's been there for me through thick and thin.
Anyway, feel like I am just rambling on.

The biggest issue for me right now is telling my parents. They live in Spain and I am going there the 3rd of April for vacation, and I plan on telling them then.
I actually told my mom last summer but she has never mentioned anything about it since so it's time to confront her again and let her know what's gonna happen.
My dad might be tricky, he's black and although he was really good with me coming out as a lesbian, I am not sure about this..
I am gonna be so nervous I'll be shitting bricks!
The next thing is my work, I know I have to spill the beans at some point but when? Could any of you help me with this?
I won't start the RLT until about 6 or 7 months from now.
My work requires me to dress quite feminine and it's hurting me more and more each day. It's getting to the point where I don't even want to go there anymore while I really love the work that I am doing and the people there.

Sorry I have so many questions but in many ways I am so new to this, I've never met any other transguys or girls.
One stupid thing is my hair; it's really long and curly and I want to cut it, but how?

Thanx for listening

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Love your avata, is that your cat shocked at the news,that he knew all along? Wondering why it took you so long?

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Hey Alex

I know you say you won't be starting the RLT for 6 or 7 months or so, but is there any real reason why you're not starting sooner? If you feel you're ready to talk to work about it, and wearing the female clothes is becoming too much for you, why not go for it now?

I don't really have any experience about coming out in the workplace, but there's a number of people here who do and who will be able to give you good advice.

Dave

You're right mate, I am already living like a man outside of work, it's just making it all the more frustrating and confusing keeping up the charade at work. I think I will have a talk with either my manager or HR rep next week to sort things out and to also see if I can even stay on after I transition.
I am also gonna get a haircut soon (YAY), any ideas on what might be the best sort of haircut? I have a quite round face, not the thinnest of people.

LOL @ fishkeeper; I don't think he ever knew any diff.

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Alex a.k.a Soulja_Boi44

P.s. my new avatar...well it's just wishful thinking..found a good use for eyeliner anyways!

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In my experience my face has looked less round when the sides and back were cut shorter but a bit more length on the top