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Crow · Joined: 29 Feb 2008 Posts: 48 Location: Nothumberland (uk)

I guess at the moment i am young and still have a long time to decide what i want to do with my body.
Mainly i want to look male, get a binder that works and doesn't allow my breasts to pop out again.
Also a man doesn't pee sitting down not that i know anyway. I want something to allow me to stand up and pee comfortably i know a website but i don't have enough money.
Also i want my family to take me serious and call me Damien and not Sarah.
I want a packer to but down my pants to make me feel complete.
I train hard everyday, weightlifting and training and goin to karate.
Its hard because nobody knows or even cares that looking and being make means alot to me its what i want more than anything i swear my life is too hard to carry on.
But i keep going for the fact that i can change myself mentally and phyically.
I feel so uncofortable in my body i just want to be myself but i can't.
Not until i have the opperations and all the pain in the world would be worth it.

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Skyler · Tzoner Joined: 08 Feb 2007 Posts: 934 Location: Canada

Definately some men do sit to pee

If you really want to stand to pee and can't afford a STP device you can make your own by getting a medicine spoon and cutting off the end
(Tip: practice with it in the shower first until you get the hang of it!)

**thefishkeeper** · Advisor Joined: 09 Feb 2007 Posts: 1487 Location: Reading

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Not until i have the opperations and all the pain in the world would be worth it.

Did you know that you can still be who you are with out the ops?

I was for twenty years, no matter what was on the out side, I knew who was on the inside.

To me that's what counted.

Wink

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Crow · Joined: 29 Feb 2008 Posts: 48 Location: Nothumberland (uk)

i've had 16 years of living a lie but known the truth about my real gender. I always said when i would grow up i would be a boy. I cnt stand my female body i would have the ops now if i could trust me. I really want to be my proper gender. Thanks for you're messages.

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MattP · Joined: 23 Feb 2008 Posts: 14

I agree with thefishkeeper. I hate my body but i like who i am. I know i am a good person and one day i WILL be the way i want to be, a way where everything fits.

I know its hard, Damien, but you have to be patient. These things take time. Many of us are going through/have gone through what you are going through right now.

You know there is a light at the end of this very long tunnel so keep a smile on ya face and look forward to what will be.

Matt

**thefishkeeper** · Advisor Joined: 09 Feb 2007 Posts: 1487 Location: Reading

This topic has been moved to it's right full place.

Cool

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RD · Joined: 31 Mar 2008 Posts: 53

thefishkeeper wrote:

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Not until i have the opperations and all the pain in the world would be worth it.

Did you know that you can still be who you are with out the ops?

I was for twenty years, no matter what was on the out side, I knew who was on the inside.

To me that's what counted.

Wink

For me that's not really an option. I need these gah-ram breasts off. I've never found a bra that doesn't always cause my back discomfort, and sometimes my binder bundles just right that it hits a something and hurts. so, maybe I don't need the full op, but I sure as heck ain't putting up with a whole decade of this if I can avoid it.