ok, after trying for a couple of days to post anything on my blog i've decided to give up, so will try and post todays news here, and dump my old blog.

ARRRRRRRRRGH! pissed off at life and now the forum is getting at me too!
insisting this topic doesnt exist!

annoyed now coz after a long conversation with an argumentative receptionist at CX GIC i've come to the conclusion that i need to have my bloods taken again!

which with the way things are going means i'll have had my next CX appointment before i get to start on T.

and i dont know where i'll have to go to get my bloods taken or if its even on my main bus route, if not it starts to get costly and as a student i dont have much money.

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As I told in your old blog, it's a forum glitch.
Normally the post does show up despite of the Topic does not exist you get. All your three posts appeared in the old blog.

But new year is a good case to start a new blog, anyways!

Happy New Year!

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Yay for a new blog. I'm sorry to hear your day isn't going so well Cayden. The situation with your bloods does sound frustrating and I guess the forum glitches just compounded your frustration too. Sometimes I get days where everything seems to be out to frustrate me. I hope you get your bloods done soon and without too much trouble and I hope you have a good weekend to help relieve some of the stresses of today.

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yeh but my other posts didnt show up, the ones for like the previous couple of days. oh well, as juz says new year new blog, am gonna drop the old one now.

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GOD! they do it just to wind me up don't they.
spoke with a much nicer receptionist today when ringing to ask which bloods i need to get taken when she goes and manages to find my results so i don't now need another set taking.

glad that things can get moving again now though.

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Great news .

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this just goes on and on, now because my new gp has failed to tell my old gp that i'm now registered with them, my old gp is refusing to release my blood results.
so now ive got to chase up my new gp to get the results from them themselves, and chase up the local health authority aparrently to get them to actually get my notes sorted.
at this point i'm fucking sick of the NHS! as i've been chasing these results since the beginning of november.

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I can imagine how frustrating it must be for you Cayden! Sometimes it feels like everything is working against you - but I'm sure you'll get there in the end. Can you get your old GP to give you a copy of the results - they are your results after all, so you're entitled to a copy. Then your mum or someone could pick them up - you might have to authorise it - and fax or send them through to you. Just a thought - dunno if it would work or not, but might be worth a try.

Dave

well, i've told my new gp to get it, so i'll ring them again tomorrow, and if they haven't done anything i'll try what you recommend.

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what a scary thought, in just under a month i'm off to london again, get to see my mum, a real bonus and get my third appointment. just realised how close it is

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well, my new gp has got my results off my old gp, just need to wait for my gp to have a chance to look them over, so hopefully i'll know somehting tomorrow.

good things in life are often worth waiting for yes, but when the waiting time is being extended by others for no good reason that wait often feels useless.

With it being so close to going on hormones and then having them do irreprable things to my body i have found myself over the last couple of days thinking to myself, is this what i want to do. am i 100% sure i want to go ahead, and while maybe not 100% i'm feeling pretty damn certain, everytime i try and think of if i could go back to dressing as a girl and trying to fit in with other girls the old feelings of revulsion at that act surface again.
so i've concluded that yes i want to go go ahead, it's just fear of change, be it good or bad, and fear of not knowing what the future holds which leaves me feeling slightly uncertain at this time.

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FFS!

aparrently my doctor isn't sure on the wording of the latest letter from the clinic which was attached to the blood results but belives it means the depo i'm on has to be outta my system before i start on the sustanon.
i've convinved her to call the clinic to confirm this as i will be bloody well pissed off if i have to wait another 3 months to start on T.

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Problem sorted, appointment with the nurse in a couple of hours

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