Hello Igor.
Glad to see you've got a blog, here.
I'll be back to read some more as soon as I can.
I think its great that you've got a boyfriend who understands you and that you can be open with your aunt, even if she doesn't fully understand. She will in time! You are very young and I really think you are in a good track!

(You want to learn Faroese !!! / I just love the idea of distant islands in faraway seas )

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Now where should I start?
The music !
I used to belong to the Heavy Metal "clan" myself, when I was in my teens (and that was ...quite a while ago...). I was fond of bands like Metallica, Maiden, Motorhead, Queensryche etc.
Dimmu Borgir (did I spell it right?), that must be "new fruit"
Anyway, after my teens I had a turn to other kinds of music, especialy other kinds of rock music. I liked (and still do) many different rock genres, especially those inspired by the "counter-culture" and even more those by the "counter-culture" of the 60s and 70s. Oldies! Notably, oldtime psychadelic, progressive, folk rock and the such...

I also tend to like modern electronica music, psychadelic trance and the such..., and also some jazz, blues, ethnic, latin or whatever else sounds good...

And I also love some distinctly Greek musical genres, like "Rebetiko" and "Endechno" and, of course, all the classic local "counter-cultural" rock scene, too.

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I think translation (and interpretation too, although I don't know if you are interested in that) is an occupation with a lot of "future". I think you shouldn't worry about not finding a job in such fields. The whole world is coming, more and more, together, everything is getting mixed and the translator would be more and more a necessity (for example, I suppose Macedonia will soon be connected or part of the European Union which uses a whole lot of translators...). You can always mix such an occupation with things like journalism or writing, in which I see you already have some experience.
(Of course writing, by itself, doesn't "bring the bread in", I know that from experience . Maybe with schi-fi things could be different, however)

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It's a good thing you found lgbt people in your home city. Don't think twice, people, about getting organized and all ! Organization does have it's setbacks, it sure does, but I think it is an absolute necessity. Especially for us living in the ... great dry Balkan desert... Our life would have been so much easier if there was more organization and mutual support already...

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About that April 1st, custom of yours, does it have anything to do with carnival (for us it's earlier in the year)? Here at April 1st we have a very different custom: it's the "day of lies", everyone has to say a candid lie. Even the newspapers write one (and they point it out in the next day's edition) which is really silly, since newspapers, actually, write a whole lot of lies, every day

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anyway, that's all, for now

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Yep, I think I understand what you mean. Carnival and carnival-like customs are a bit of freedom for everybody, in any case. As for the "gender role" aspect of that freedom, however, I have never taken advantage of it. Dressing up and going public has never interested me much. All I ever wanted was to have the right body (and not the wrong one). It is a good thing, however, that that small bit of freedom exists, for whoever is interested.

Thanks for the tip on Tryambaka

I looked in that thread you mentioned and it puzzled me, since it doesn't seem to have anything to do with "our Balkan situation" and all. I have written- rather hastily- an oppinion on that matter in this thread: "Balkans: Relentless Homophobia Rages in the Balkans" which is in the "General" category.
You sent a letter to the ministry ! I hope they have their ears open, though I doupt it... Ministries usually, wouldn't "let their ears sweat", as we would state it down here...

Well, I'll keep watching in on your blog, to see how you are going on

My best wishes, Igor !

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Well, actually I don't think I've got much freedom, were I live. In this quite macho culture, being "less of the ...minimum man" is severely pinpointed... But that, is not the only reason for my stance towards dressing up. I am not very fond of dressing up in general. I like simplicity in garments. "Libertine" simplicity , perhaps. If I am blessed with the streignth to transition, I suppose I would be more than happy to continue waring my good ol jeens, sweaters and t-shirts (most of the time), as long of course as I WILL have the body that will require some kind of women's undergarments being worn underneath... But then again, perhaps if I do get to transition I would see things from a different angle....

Thanks for the tips on music! I have already visited your sites. I really like their artwork! But the fact is, my computers sound system has completely collapsed and I don't have the knowledge to fix it.

(Ministries, baahhh.... )

Keep it on , coming out and all !! I am happy for you !!

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Yes you are making friends ....right here!

Keep on shaving, mate! The "shaving effect" you are discribing is quite common in adolescent boys. Well, we are going through another adolescence I suppose . It is really a "wonderment" how some things happen, when we really really want them to happen Even without the hormone drugs. I am experienceing some similar little changes myself

Your choise of clothes is just fine. And it would be just fine, anyway, if it makes you feel confortable with yourself . As for me, it would probably be quite a while until I would be able to ware some "night dress" in a special occasion, even if I wanted to Well, idependently of that, I have been having, these last days, some second thoughts about my "dressing up doctrine" Discussing this matter, over here, really put me into thoughts. Perhaps all that "simplicity" I was talking about, really belongs -mostly- to that "male persona" I've been dragging around in society. Perhaps the female me, when it finally emerges socialy, will be rather different. I still don't think there is much probabillity that I would be fond of any ...trendy, glamourous or "posh" stuff. But waring, from time to time, dresses and stuff that are either ...simple or "alternative" or something, I think I might like that (how is that, for a little "dose" of "female vanity"? It seams I've got some of it in me, after all )

Police? Baaahh They are into every filthy thing ...in the book, over here too. Power, even a little power, often corrupts. Power, is corruption itself, anyway... Resorting to police is no good. We should be able to support and defend ourselves. Collectively. But I suppose that is too far gone for our "Balkanian situation".

I didn't understand very well what you said, in the beggining of your post, about hypocritical (?) human rights activists and all. What ore you reffering to. "Non-profit" organizations and stuff like that? Are there "human rights activists" on TV over there? Cause, over here, all you can find on TV is homophobic, transphobic biggots, or gays who turn themselves into ...a show, talking "bitchily" about the last haircut or breastjob of cellebrities and other muck like that...
As for activism, I think it is at it's best when the activist really knows, first hand, what he/she is active about... For example, I think it is transgender people, themselves, who should be "activist" about gender issues.


Carry on, Igor, mate.

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Hi there, tough guy!

Do you pass ??!!

Honestly, you look like a boy in his (late) teens. And a very guyish boy, indeed !!!
I'm sure you could soon "grow up" to be a handsome man !!!


Good for you, feeling happy, Igor
And you are making us happy, too

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Nice avatar piccy Igor.

You look like you could be in a boy band in that picture, very handsome .

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Always have faith and believe in yourself.
Never run from the truth.
Have the will to change your fate and your spirit will never die.
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