just came out to another mate. again, they weren't shocked in the slightest! Bloody brilliant!
They also said if i need any help or support or someone to come with me, they're the person to ask.
Hopefully the rest of the people i tell will be as understanding!!

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bugger me, nearly 24 hours awake. Kinda drunk and completly wired on way to much tesco nasty ass energy drink. (so much caffine, i can't stop twitching) yet there's nothing i'd rather be doing at 7:15 on a sunday morning instead of playing way too many video games...

I've been sat on various PC games since 11pm and only moved to have a fag and use the facilities. Before that was in my favourite haunt and got smashed suprisingly quickly.

Before I got tipsy, was chattin to the mate i came out to the day before. She had so many questions but, all of them one's i had been asked before. I've also given her some websites to look at as she's quite intregued by it all.
Again she emphisised the fact that if i need her, that I just have to ask.

I definatly made wise choices in what mates I've kept close over the past few years. I'm just lucky I guess. We had a bit of a laff with it to, the few people i have told all seem to want part of what i end up having removed.
Trust me when i say they are serious, they're a bloody strange bunch.
The more i talk about it, the more confident i am about telling people, and other than family, there aren't many people left now.

Roll on Psych referral
Sorry if the above is un-readable, i am wasted so it makes perfect sense to me

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My dad is officially driving me up the bloody wall.
Since i was made redundant in April, i have had two other jobs, both of which laid me off after 4 days. I've spent a hell of alot of time dragging myself through my IT course and if i can afford to, i go out with the lads once a week.

Over the past few days, any time i see my dad (which is alot as I still live with my folks) he decides its best to have a go at me "so i get my arse inot gear". This morning he woke me up& had ago at me for still not having a job. This first rant lasted about half an hour, didn't even have time for a cuppa tea!!

Then had to take me brother to get his passport photo done. As soon as i got back in, me dad's rant continued. This one was mainly about money. When i was working full time i offered to pay my folks £200 a month. Now i have no job, he still demands the same. Supposedly my folks are broke, yet they have just spent £600 quid on season tickets, £2300 on a holiday for them all (except me), they gave my bro and sis £50 each. (for the record I get told no if i ask to borrow a fiver)
To keep the roof over my head i've had to sell my bearded dragon and a VIP festival ticket, next I'll have to sell my XBOX360 and then my drunkit(then my soul). I said that i'll pay as much as I can, but this isn't good enough!! My sister works full time and pays nothing!!!He finished this rant with "You need to sort your fucking life out"

If only he knew what I was doing at the moment, he wouldn't be so quick to say that! I was so close to telling him, but realised this probably wasn't the safest of options just yet. My dad always over-reacts! He'd either swing at me, try to get me commited or chuck me out. The hitting thing, i've dealt with before and could again. The getting me commited wouldn't work as it didn't last time (for different reasons). The only thing i couldn't deal with is gettin chucked out as i only get £47 a week dole. Me best mate's mom has said i can live with them for as long as i need to if it comes to that, but i don't like scrounging of people. (plus their sofa is uncomfortable)

The sooner i finish my course and can move out the better! I just need to get out of this house.

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Hi Jamie

Sounds like you've got one of those dads. I've still got one... somewhere. The only reason he hasn't had a jolly good slap is because Grandad made me promise I wouldn't do it.

Eventually, I had enough of it and got on the next bus to Glasgow and pleaded homelessness. It worked. I have a flat 400 miles away from the old bugger and I don't miss him.

It won't harm you to have a word with the local council. If your daddy-landlord is making your life a misery then you are technically homeless by the rules of the council's housing department and they will be obliged to rehouse you.

Being transgendered, you will be viewed as a vulnerable person and they will put you on the priority housing list. You might get temporary B&B in the meantime so you don't have to crash at your mate's.

Go on! Get yourself a pad. That'll show him who's The Daddy!

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Cheers Reenie

You know, i didn't even have a clue that i had that as an option. The nieve-ness of youth.....
It's definatly something I will look into, but I know it will hurt the rest of my family. (me mam wants me to stay at home until im 45!!)

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No more shit off my dad today, helps that i got up to get the birmingham job pages at 11 this morning. i also gave him 20 quid rent, he gave me a slightly pissy look, but i walked away before the bugger could say anything

just came out to another mate. Again they were so fucking cool. They congratulated me on having the guts to come out and to do something about it. They also said that they ent suprised. They said they were so proud that they are gunna take m out on the lash and by me a present... bless em

also told another couple yesterday. getting through tham thick and fast now. Just a few more left then gots to tell the parentals *gulp*

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was considering it, i could make myself a decent wedge!! i was thinkin 20 quid each? sounds fair to me....

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have just typed up a letter to my folks, as i have decided it will be the easiest (and safest) way to explain to them. But now i'm in two minds about when to give it them. part of me says the sooner the better, the other part says wait until I've been 'diagnosed' at the GIC.

but i already know that i'll be told that im trans. so why wait?
incase they flip out and kick my arse out thats why!
but i can live at my mates or go to the council (thanks reenie)
but I still won't be able to support myself, dole scummer!

i suppose i'm just scared... which i know is to be expected. I wanna get it out of the way, but put it off for as long as possible at the same time.....

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why did this appear twice??

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On thursday last week, i decided it was about time i got into shape properly. The two reasons behind this are that i still want to drop another half stone, and i want to build and define the muscles in my shoulders, back, arms and abs.
After lifting weights for two days (thurs & fri) i could already see the muscles in my back.
http://i129.photobucket.com/albums/p212/filfy1988/2days.jpg
(please ignore my ghastly femine hips.....and family guy on the televison )
So after seeing that in just a small space of time, i've decided i'm gunna go flat out. I'm gunna cycle 6 miles, run/jog 2 miles and do 1-2hours of weights per day.
I'm also changing my diet to a high protein one to ensure i can build muscles quicker. This will also help me heal quicker too. I'm also gunna pick up some protein shake stuff when i next pass through the city center, cuz i'll need to consume between 50-60g of protein each day!
This is going to be tiring, but i'm quite contented when i'm working out.

Nout else has really happened since my last post. Still waiting for a psych referral. Was hoping it would have arrived by now, but oh well.
Also glad the football season has started again, even though the prem don't kick off till saturday coming. Come on you Baggies!!

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think i may have over done the weights today.... pulled the muscles all across my shoulders and down my sides. obviously didn't warm up well enough. still, thats not going to put me off doing it again tomorrow, or going back and doing another hour before i go to bed. stupid i know, but when i start, i can't seem to stop! exercise through the pain! i did manage to eat my full 60g of protein so coupled that with a decent nights sleep and i should be right as rain in the morning! Have decided that once a week on the friday night i'm gunna take a new photo of the muscles on my back/shoulders, just so i can see them shape up!

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Baggies? Bane of my life...

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Why be that reenie? who dya follow??

anyways, finally got an appointment letter through. Seeing support adviser on september 1st! little nervous is an understatment! Glad app. came through quite quickly though.

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The Wolves

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