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Seems like i only ever come on this site when i have something on my mind and there always seems to be so many new faces everytime i visit on here. anyway welcome all.
Right heres this quarter year problem. For the last few months it feels as is my trans self had all but disappeared, now whever that had anything to do with having more to do during the longer days or the fact that my children are awake more, but to tell you the truth i havent really missed getting tarted up. That was however untill last week when the oppurtunity arouse for a couple of hours of dressing up and i guess you can guess what im gonna say!!!!!O my god what a feeling, it really felt quite orgasmic. Since then its been like going back into the old routine when i will take any oppurtunity to get changed for a while.

Another thing is im always going on about one day having boobs of sorts, nothing major just big enough to get me away from looking like a male. Previous to the last few months this thought became something like an obsession, but like my desire to dress this also seemed to take a back seat for a while, but like the return of my dressing up, this has also come back with a vengance where i feel getting boobs feels like a compulsion.
Now i know no two trans folk are the same, but i am just wondering if anyone has ever gone through the temporary break of being trans, as i for one feel for the first time in 35 years it happend to me, just dont know why!

Hi shelly, nice to see you back.

There's the old panic and purge routine that many are familiar with. I used to go through phases, but it was more to do with suppressing my feelings rather than embracing the truth.

It's far from unusual. Don't let it worry you, just go with the flow.

As for the boobs, check out Stu Rassmussen, the mayor in Oregon. He seems happy enough with his implants.

Yeah know your right, just cant stand the feeling of my life being run by a force i have no control over, however try to fight it and that normally equals,im letting my wife and kids down, why was i ever born, the end of the world is nigh and a spell of depression, and i hate that feeling even more.

I am sort of feeling the same now for the first time in 13 all most 14 year's i feel kind of meh about it all i still feel strongly but its like i don't care atm.

It will pass im sure most likey just life as a whole draging you down to the point you kind of no longer care.

Ive been similar lately, whenever I feel stressed or just sad, I seem to lose all sense of self....
But not only do my trans issues go out of the window, but everything else does too.
As Darzok mentioned, I just don't care

When im happy and feeling less stressed, it's totally the opposite.
I want to be happy, I need to be happy, but how do I do that?

HI Shelly
I know what you mean there are times I feel that life is just a drag and dull
And iam post op, I work and some times I do not even bother to put make up on.
But when I have time of work and just in the house by myself I feel the urge to get dressed up and wow do I feel GOOOOOOOD.
My next door neighbour comes in for a coffee and a chat and asks where am I going all dressed up, I say no where, I just had the urge to feel good and I do .
The boob’s thing iam waiting to hear back from my doctor about mine as I want some moor as even all the years on hormones I sometimes that they are just so small
All the best to you
Lady Tanya

Blimey what a relief, was worried at first that folk on here would think i have lost my marbles, i mean to say how can a trans suddenly feel like their not one anymore? Been trying to pin point why my feelings might of drifted away for a while and the only thing i can think of is i took part in last months London to Brighton bike ride and for weeks before the ride that was all i could think of, might of had something to do with it, just not sure.

Well what ever the reasons my trans self has come back with a bang and here i am again tarted up to the nines again. I have always felt it hard to talk to my wife about how i feel sometimes, but i did pluck up the courage to send her a few texts yesterday and at one point she did put in a text "there aint no true sex so just act how you feel" think thats one of the most understanding things she has ever said to me as it shows that although i regret drifting back into my old self its nice to know i still have the support of my wife and at the end of the day thats all that counts to me.

If you can't answer the "if I don't feel trans, then what do I feel like?" question. Then it's just a rough patch your going through.

When I don't feel quite myself, I don't even feel human.

Thats the trouble aint even noticed for a while that there has been a to question to answer. Normally sneak any time to get tarted up and the subject totally dominates my thoughts, red hot on getting rid of any body hair (took my wife last night to say that me pits needed sorting) and love girly shops with the wife and are own girly nights together, but the whole lot went and i didnt even realise it had gone,just never happend to me. My life would of been so less complicated if it had of stayed away as i am finding it a bit troublesome to deal with,but no doubt give it a week or so and i will be back in the swing of things.

You could well be verging on depression and don't even realise it yet.

For me, being out of work, reduced social contact and other general issues are taking their toll.

I couldn't even face a visit from a really good friend last month! In the end I felt awful for that too.